and so he says

THE SEEKER TREE

Who would have thought that I would last this long?..

And for a tree sarcastic defines it all

Ive live for years to see everybody's tale die

Yet they all seem so happy, with smile that never leaves my eye

i used to remember those scene,

exactly way back when i was just a seed

that person who took care of me

and chooses to leave me as an old rotting tree

maybe she wanted to grow with someone else

its not impossible that she is a seeker herself

and after hundreds of storms that pushed me

i can finally accept that she is not my destiny

and so by letting go of one of my leaves

it will fly away on miles i can never see

and by any chance that it landed on some precious land

like a seed it may grow and part of me will bond

with a new hope that someone will pick me

and plant me on a small pot for trees

but if fate plays a joke one more time

i will then grow again on another empty land

if that happens i now know what to do

ill keep sending leaves, seeds whatever i have to do

then you shall see, ill never be tired

until one of them reaches a hand

i will no longer seek for that small pot

because growing as a tree made me realized a lot

its not where you grew or how much they've care

what matters most is who actually chooses to stay..

his perception

 THE TREE WHO WANTED TO GROW ON A SMALL POT

I was once a small tree, taken good care by those people around me

talked to every second, watched through every minute and watered everyday

there was never a time that these people didn't care

everything is fine until that day, the day i was sent to an open space

Nothing is around me all of a sudden, 

what they call vastness, i call it emptiness and darkness

when there is storm or scorching heat, where is that person that i used to seek?..

was it really all for me?..no seriously was this even for me?..

like love, i cant imagine letting go of someone you really need

does giving up means getting stronger?..or was it just a lame excuse to surrender

well here i am now in an open space, with limitless branches no wind can move my pace

a thousand times stronger, standing high and so much taller

i guess this happens when there is no one to look over

maybe someday they will cut this tree, 

who knows i could stay here for countless of years..

but will all of this even matter?.

for this small tree that wanted to grow on a small pot, have already missed a lot

growth is such a poison, 

if given a chance i wouldn't do this any longer

because this tree would always wanted to be, 

no matter how short its lifespan would be,

 just grow with love and sincerity

at the hands full of seeds that this person chooses not to drop, 

on a land full of crap 

but rather on a small pot.

it's not about choices

haiy, bat kea kailangan nya pa ko idamay! anlabo! in the first place, xa aman nagtanong ng opinion ko., and i never intended na pagpilitan ung gusto ko o r ung point of view ko. Pinapaintindi ko lng aman na, ndi dapat papiliin ung guy kung dapat mag quit magsmoke for the girl. kasi aman dbah, kung talagang importante ung taong un para sa knya, khit ndi nya sabihin, or ndi xa pilitin, gagawin nya un! haiy, antopak! blog ko na nga lng matitira xaken! tama xa! kxe wala kong magawa! ndi ako makapagreklamo sa nya eh! tss.. hindi amasa ayaw ko mag quit uminom! kung yosi ng aman, talagang tinigilan ko eh! ewan ko ba! uo, masarap uminom, maglasing, gumimik, bar hopping! ndi ko talaga kaya igive up un! peo, kung sasabihin nya, why not dbah? keribels un! peo anoh xa, hilo? taz xa, allowed maginom! walang limits? anoh? sasabihin na aman nya, choice ko un na sumusunod akonsa kanya? iba na dating sakin eh! parang ndi aq danun kaimportante na ndi man lng tlaga nya knoconsider na sumunod xaken! xa na dominating! nakakasakit na tlaga! tas parang iba pa u g mood nya xaken nung kinukulet ko xa! isang galaw ko na lng daw sa knya, talagang bahala na daw ako, naiinis na daw talaga xa! tangina! bawal ba maglambing? ang harsh na aman nya! ansakit na talaga ng ginagawa mo bry eh! lahat aman ginagawa ko para lng maplease ka! kahit na mag mukha na kong tanga! ndi aman sa napupuno na ko peo anoh ba aman ung konting konsiderasyon dbah? tangina talaga! what happens on facebook stays on your wall! kung naiinis ka sa mga nakikita mo jan or sa mga kausap mo jan, wag mo ko idamay! taena talaga! kung pde ko lng hanapin c joyce reyes, papapatay ko talaga un, matigil lbg yan hatred mo! tsss...

growing a tree in a small pot

a goodbye simply means a sacrifice.

a good relationship to end, a loved one to let go, or an important thing to give up.

not because of anything else but simply a strong way to surrender.

the things that may not be meant for us to have.

on the other hand, waiting is the best choice to consider.

Let it grow and eventually let it be in his fame..

Replant it when it needed space

Water it unselfishly, but dont forget,…

“it still needs some space to grow!”

Give some time for a conversation..

This will mature the growth for both of you.

Then you’ll see….

the plant you used to see in a small pot,

will be the best tree at your side.

A tree wherein you shed all your smile with





I made this way back high school. For 8 years, i dont know why i compose this kind of poem for a 'go green' topic. I never expected that ill be the seed that needs to be planted so that it can be a tree., but thanks to this man that made me realize my worth. I was never a seed nor a tree. I am the best flower he saw in the middle of a beautiful garden..

LSS: Are you happy now?

He gave me this feeling I cant explain.

I know im safe everytime im in his arms.

I see no fear when he holds my hand.

And everytime i see him smile, all my worries and problems fades.

I dont know how to thank him. 

I dont know how to make him feel that he is the most important person in my life now is him.

I want to tell him everyday how I love him so much.

I want to take care of him for the rest of our life.

I know im not romantic.

Im not sweet either.

I cant find ways to say how I feel for you. 

Only if you can read this.....

I love you now more than i need you.

so what?

what will you do if you dont want to end things with him but he’s giving you up?

 

what will you do if he is giving you damn reasons to leave him but still you cant?

 

what will you do if you’re really mad but still, upon looking in his eyes, all the anger disappears? 

 

what will you do if you love the person so much and you are willing to do everything just to make him happy?

 

what will you do if he is asking you to leave but you really want to stay?

 

What will i do????

walang kwentang usapan

>>pagod ka na maging nurse ko?

 **pagod nai

 >>bket? xbe mo, ndi ka mapapagod? bat napagod ka? anong nagawa ko?  

 **d ko dn alam

>>xbe na eh! xbihin mo na.. takot ka na aman magbago desisyon mo taz wala ulet? 

**d ko maintindihan cnsbi mo

>> bket nga kxe?

** d ko tlga mgets swear to God

>>ang alin? tnatanong ko lng bat bigla ka napagod? anongmahirap intindihin dun? xbe mo kxedati, ndi ka mapapagod

 **bka mali ako ng sabi

>>ung totoo.. wag mo nga ko utuin this time.. pls lng, wala kxe ko maintindihan.

**bka nga mali ako ng sabi..

>>eh ayoko, ndi ko kaya! kaw, kaya mo? bastos ka na bry

** cge kht ano sabihin mo..hndi nmn na nga ako magccomplain.. 

>>anoh bang mahirap sa sasabihin mo lng?? andaya mo aman eh! bat ayaw mo sagutin?

** sabihin na ano?. 

>>ndi talaga nten aaucn? ung totoo

**wg na lang.. hndi na..