it's not about choices

haiy, bat kea kailangan nya pa ko idamay! anlabo! in the first place, xa aman nagtanong ng opinion ko., and i never intended na pagpilitan ung gusto ko o r ung point of view ko. Pinapaintindi ko lng aman na, ndi dapat papiliin ung guy kung dapat mag quit magsmoke for the girl. kasi aman dbah, kung talagang importante ung taong un para sa knya, khit ndi nya sabihin, or ndi xa pilitin, gagawin nya un! haiy, antopak! blog ko na nga lng matitira xaken! tama xa! kxe wala kong magawa! ndi ako makapagreklamo sa nya eh! tss.. hindi amasa ayaw ko mag quit uminom! kung yosi ng aman, talagang tinigilan ko eh! ewan ko ba! uo, masarap uminom, maglasing, gumimik, bar hopping! ndi ko talaga kaya igive up un! peo, kung sasabihin nya, why not dbah? keribels un! peo anoh xa, hilo? taz xa, allowed maginom! walang limits? anoh? sasabihin na aman nya, choice ko un na sumusunod akonsa kanya? iba na dating sakin eh! parang ndi aq danun kaimportante na ndi man lng tlaga nya knoconsider na sumunod xaken! xa na dominating! nakakasakit na tlaga! tas parang iba pa u g mood nya xaken nung kinukulet ko xa! isang galaw ko na lng daw sa knya, talagang bahala na daw ako, naiinis na daw talaga xa! tangina! bawal ba maglambing? ang harsh na aman nya! ansakit na talaga ng ginagawa mo bry eh! lahat aman ginagawa ko para lng maplease ka! kahit na mag mukha na kong tanga! ndi aman sa napupuno na ko peo anoh ba aman ung konting konsiderasyon dbah? tangina talaga! what happens on facebook stays on your wall! kung naiinis ka sa mga nakikita mo jan or sa mga kausap mo jan, wag mo ko idamay! taena talaga! kung pde ko lng hanapin c joyce reyes, papapatay ko talaga un, matigil lbg yan hatred mo! tsss...

growing a tree in a small pot

a goodbye simply means a sacrifice.

a good relationship to end, a loved one to let go, or an important thing to give up.

not because of anything else but simply a strong way to surrender.

the things that may not be meant for us to have.

on the other hand, waiting is the best choice to consider.

Let it grow and eventually let it be in his fame..

Replant it when it needed space

Water it unselfishly, but dont forget,…

“it still needs some space to grow!”

Give some time for a conversation..

This will mature the growth for both of you.

Then you’ll see….

the plant you used to see in a small pot,

will be the best tree at your side.

A tree wherein you shed all your smile with





I made this way back high school. For 8 years, i dont know why i compose this kind of poem for a 'go green' topic. I never expected that ill be the seed that needs to be planted so that it can be a tree., but thanks to this man that made me realize my worth. I was never a seed nor a tree. I am the best flower he saw in the middle of a beautiful garden..

LSS: Are you happy now?

He gave me this feeling I cant explain.

I know im safe everytime im in his arms.

I see no fear when he holds my hand.

And everytime i see him smile, all my worries and problems fades.

I dont know how to thank him. 

I dont know how to make him feel that he is the most important person in my life now is him.

I want to tell him everyday how I love him so much.

I want to take care of him for the rest of our life.

I know im not romantic.

Im not sweet either.

I cant find ways to say how I feel for you. 

Only if you can read this.....

I love you now more than i need you.

so what?

what will you do if you dont want to end things with him but he’s giving you up?

 

what will you do if he is giving you damn reasons to leave him but still you cant?

 

what will you do if you’re really mad but still, upon looking in his eyes, all the anger disappears? 

 

what will you do if you love the person so much and you are willing to do everything just to make him happy?

 

what will you do if he is asking you to leave but you really want to stay?

 

What will i do????

walang kwentang usapan

>>pagod ka na maging nurse ko?

 **pagod nai

 >>bket? xbe mo, ndi ka mapapagod? bat napagod ka? anong nagawa ko?  

 **d ko dn alam

>>xbe na eh! xbihin mo na.. takot ka na aman magbago desisyon mo taz wala ulet? 

**d ko maintindihan cnsbi mo

>> bket nga kxe?

** d ko tlga mgets swear to God

>>ang alin? tnatanong ko lng bat bigla ka napagod? anongmahirap intindihin dun? xbe mo kxedati, ndi ka mapapagod

 **bka mali ako ng sabi

>>ung totoo.. wag mo nga ko utuin this time.. pls lng, wala kxe ko maintindihan.

**bka nga mali ako ng sabi..

>>eh ayoko, ndi ko kaya! kaw, kaya mo? bastos ka na bry

** cge kht ano sabihin mo..hndi nmn na nga ako magccomplain.. 

>>anoh bang mahirap sa sasabihin mo lng?? andaya mo aman eh! bat ayaw mo sagutin?

** sabihin na ano?. 

>>ndi talaga nten aaucn? ung totoo

**wg na lang.. hndi na.. 

my new light

I started this again. I just want to share my story with him. Well, maybe, i want to remember all the things that happened to us.. I know it might end someday, but not too soon. As long as he gives me happiness, i am willing to stay. If i can only ask him one thing, i will definitely say…

Please give me this kind of smile everyday! He is the man i wanna spend my wholel life with. I cant find any reasons. All i know is that i cant aford to loose him. I wanna be his shadow. The only light in his darkest night. The oasis in his desert. I wanna be the one he chose..  

The first time i saw him? No spark, no connection at all. I just thought that we are 2 ordinary people! Never i imagine that ill fall inlove with this effin guy! Crazy as hell! Until this one day, he gave me a reason to live. To stay. To love him everyday! I cant imagine myself living with him for the rest of my life. But my heart says,i want him to stay forever. I guess the reasonwhyHe gave me a weak heart because I need to find someone that can make it strong.. Maybe the reason why it has a small hole inhere, is because someone will occupy this tiny place for me. Yea, i do really need him! He lets me overcomemy weakness and he gives me reason to be strong! tss.. and here i am.. Waiting for the day that i can finally say… I Love him more than I need him.

my vow

promises are made to be broken.. inever believe with promises. But an extra ordinary man changes everything in me. 

 

I was one a princess who doesnt know how to think of others. 

Living in a shell wherein the only thing that matters is how i make myself happy.

One day, someone made me realize one thing.

Vision of a man that i wanna grow old with.

Every thought of him gives me the reason to wake up every morning.

 

Because of you, i am happy everyday. you made my life complete.

Reality is now better thanmy dreams. Every hoour, every minute.

You make me smile, You make me laugh.

And now, i finally made my decision,. I wanna spend everyday with you.

 Now and forever.

 

 

 

 

<3 i will never break this vow.. i will always hold on to this promise..

just let me know

For the first time i dont know what to do! i cant imagine my remaining days without him. If only I can tell him that I only want himto overcome his fears and make it his strength.. And im so sorry.. I can never be your strength! I cant give you the courage to face all your fears.. Because in the first place, imthe one who’s afraid! Im the one who dont want to be left alone.. Promise me one thing.. Never ever let me go! I cannever find a way to come back. I mightbelost somewhere. Please let me stay! I may not be the perfect girl for you.. im clumsy. I only think ofmyself! Imego centric! Im not smart. Imnot pretty! Im moody. But definitely, I will do everything for a perfect man like you.